Spots

The spots are always there
they never leave
never fade
there stuck in my thoughts
like a g. damn parade
overtaking my mind
my body
my soul
I no longer can run
I could never hide
I'm being eaten away
distroyed
nothing is left of me inside
beaten to death
blinded by the unseen
I'm going piece by piece
there will soon be nothing left of me

Stalker.

I thought you were crazy.....keeping track of my where abouts, watching my every move, the night we met...then finding the near impossible...Me. You must have been very determined, All just for a casual relationship.... Then invited me out I still thought, wow he's mad..lol....But then we talked, we hung out, and it's so much more than I thought, I can't do the casual thing I realized....I like you, and now I find myself stuck. Wow what the hell was I thinking when I said I could be casual. Sorry babe just can't do it, sorry.

Remember

Try to remember all the marks on my heart
You left that day and tore me apart.
I can tell things are wrong
God yes I feel it too.
The only one I wanted
to ever be with was you.
I reached out to you
And find I am alone
Though you said you love me
it was never shown

How things are.

We can't talk,
you don't want to,
We can't look at each other,
now that we are through

You turn around,
I see you walk away,
I shake my head,
And go the other way.

We can't talk,
You won't listen to me,
We can't look at each other,
There's nothing to see.

I could have been your friend,
But I wasn't good enough,
So you walk away,
Dealing with it is tough.

This is how things are,
Now that we are through,
I can't forget but can forgive,
The first moves up to you.

What if?

What if I said I love you?
What would you say?
would it be "I love you too"?
or would you get scared and run away?

What if I said I need you?
what would you do?
would you hold me tight in your arms?
would you be there when I needed you?

What if i wanted to be your one and only?
what would you say to that?
would you think im just desperate and lonely?
would it be like that?

All I can do is hope for forever
So, what are you going to do?

Alone..... :(

Morning has passed
The day grew old
Evening has vanished
The night is cold.

A weakness grows
Inside of me
It's getting dark
And hard to see.

The morning seems
So far away
And yet ahead
Another day.

I toss and turn
In a quiet fight
Of never ending
Sleepless nights.

The way you make me feel

The way you make me feel
is a feeling I've never felt before
my heart melts with your warm touch
and gentle caress
I get weak in the knees
with your soft kissable lips
your soothing voice
breathe taking words saying "I love you"
you holding me tight in your arms
after making love
reasuring me that you love me
I do really love you and I'll do anything to keep you.....
mabe if I keep searching I'll find you.